I want a healthy body 

Maybe this is more than the person 

I cannot have a hope 

If I be like this

I hate my body 

I never can relax in my life

Only when I can sleep

It means the death is best 

Because when I wake up

Pain would starts 

And then feel lonely and cry 

How many pains do I have to deal with alone everyday 

I am scared 

Because I might die 

If I am like this unhealthy

I don't want to die with pains 

It just scares me more and more everyday 

But nobody helps me 

I don't know what should I do too

I cannot believe someone would wants to be with like this shitty creature too

Because it's real useless creature

I'm scared 

I feel anxiety now

I don't want to wakeup